DAY 3
CHAPTER 13
Specific Instances
(of Psychic
Greeting)
Gary We resume our interview with the final section of psychic greeting that focuses on specific instances of psychic greeting that you guys experienced that were unusual (I guess they’re all unusual). To begin with, Ra mentions different times when you were greeted psychically. I would like to ask you about those, beginning with Don’s question:
QUESTIONER I personally have felt no effect that I’m aware of. Is it possible for you to tell me how we are offered this greeting, this negative psychic greeting?
RA I am Ra. The questioner has been offered the service of doubting the self and of becoming disheartened over various distortions of the personal nature. This entity has chosen not to use these opportunities, and the Orion entity has basically ceased to be interested in maintaining constant surveillance of this entity [the questioner]. 67.23
Did you guys see this in Don? That he had some proclivity towards doubting himself?
Carla Uh-uh.
Jim I never saw it.
Gary So that’s how efficiently he chose “not to use” those opportunities.
Carla He always approached 100% efficient.
Gary And in the same response, Ra talks about psychic greeting that you, Jim, experienced, but Ra was very vague about what that was:
RA The scribe is under constant surveillance and has been offered numerous opportunities for the intensification of the mental/emotional distortions and in some cases the connection matrices between mental/emotional complexes and the physical complex counterpart.
As this entity has become aware of these attacks it has become much less pervious to them. 67.23
Jim, what does Ra mean by “mental/emotional distortions” and “connection matrices between mental/emotional complexes for the physical complex counterpart”? [Gary laughs at repeating this wagonload of termi-nology.]
Jim It’s been my incarnational pattern to become angry at myself when I make a mistake, time after time: sawing a line that’s crooked, pounding a nail that bends, little things like that. It’s part of my trying to get more compassion in my incarnation, and as Ra said, what I’ve done is program lack of compassion for myself. It’s not appropriate to program lack of compassion for another entity if you’re positively oriented.
So by trying to get more compassion, I programmed lack of compassion for myself. It comes out as anger at myself when I do something that is so goofy, or at the wrong moment, or whatever reason—one thing after another. So when I would get angry, I would feel that there was an invitation, almost, to get angrier, and that’s the connection between the mental/emotional and then the physical counterpart which is to break something. So, [laughs] that’s what they’re talking about.1
Gary I’ve never seen that in you, I don’t know what they’re talking about. [everyone laughs at obvious sarcasm]
That raises an interesting and quick side point in my mind. People not believing in or aware of reincarnation would say that those biases that we develop within the lifetime are developed as a result of interacting with our environment, whether nurtured or something in our genetics; whereas, as you are describing the situation, the entity can program for itself a certain set of predispositions and biases so that it will respond in certain ways. You’re contending, then, that you programmed for this incarnation the predisposition to respond to situations with anger in order that you could experience that anger and then balance it.
Jim Right, to eventually feel compassion for myself after having gotten angry and broken something that I really liked, or behaved poorly. Then I think to myself [in forlorn voice], aww. I could have done better. But, you know, there it is—just accept yourself and go on. And that’s hopefully a way of building compassion for myself.
Carla He’s always been able to hide it completely. I remember when I was just getting to know Jim, [Jim laughs, apparently anticipating what Carla is going to say] one of the ways it’s quickest to get to know somebody is to read their hand, so I looked at his hand and I looked at his thumb, and I said, “You have a really bad temper, somewhere. That’s what it looks like anyway.” Jim just nodded and said, “Yeah, that’s true.”
And then I saw it for the first time. He had a little stone that he threw on the driveway right after buying it—I don’t remember what he was angry with himself for—but that stone got chipped, and it couldn’t be fixed. But he kept the chipped stone as a paperweight on his desk, which is what he had planned to use it for, and I was always amazed at that because obviously he had forgiven himself, and he was quite compassionate about it, and the stone reminded him every time he looked at it, I’m sure. Do you remember that? It had little flowers on it . . .
Jim Yeah, I do. I’d forgotten it, but now that you mention it, I remember.
Carla I don’t know what happened to it but I suppose in one of our moves it got lost.
Jim Yeah, I haven’t seen it in years.
Gary Moving on to another specific instance of psychic greeting:
QUESTIONER What has caused the swelling in Jim’s body and what can be done to heal it?
RA For the answer to this query we must begin with the consideration of the serpent, signifying wisdom. This symbol has the value of the ease of viewing the two faces of the one who is wise. Positive wisdom adorns the brow indicating indigo-ray work. Negative wisdom, by which we intend to signify expressions which effectually separate the self from the other-self, may be symbolized by the poison of the fangs. To use that which a mind/body/spirit complex has gained of wisdom for the uses of separation is to invite the fatal bite of that wisdom’s darker side. 101.2
Can you elaborate more on what is meant by “negative wisdom” and how it pertains to this experience?
Jim Well, the negative wisdom would be some reason that you could give yourself for separating from another person, the rational reasons of treated me poorly, or doesn’t like me, or doesn’t believe what I believe, or did some-thing to—whatever reason you want to come up with. You can convince yourself there’s a reason to do just about anything, I guess, but in this case, it’s how to separate from another person and why. That was happening at that time.
Gary So you were directing your wisdom in that direction?
Jim Yeah, we’d had a discussion about what to do about the Law of One material that we’d collected thus far. I think we were about through Session 75 or 76 or so, and Don wanted to print all 75 sessions in a single book. I was against that because, number one, we couldn’t afford it, and two, we weren’t done with the Ra contact; there would be more to come which would need to be printed as well. So that’s what was happening there. I was allowing a separation to exist between Don and me. And I had to fix that rather quickly.
All that, however, didn’t matter as much as the disharmony that I allowed to exist for a day or so. Disharmony in a working with the magical power of the Ra contact needed to be harmonized as soon as possible, so that our friend of negative polarity would not have an opening to energize and further hinder or stop the Ra contact.2
Carla Don could be very frustrating, because he would just say, “No, I don’t want to do this thing,” and he would get very stubborn and there would be a subtle change in his facial expression. To me, he would resemble a goat, and when I saw the goat expression, I would think, “Oh, dear, there’s no use talking to him right now.” [laughs]
Jim So what had happened there was that one night, before I had healed the rift between us, in my sleep I was bitten by a common wood spider on my arm, and within a week or so I’d gained 30 pounds of water weight, my kidneys had begun to malfunction . . .
Carla He’d gotten really round. And it was fleshy everywhere. You’d poke him and it would take a while to recover the—
Jim Everything I had except, maybe, my tongue. [laughs]
Carla Water! Water, water everywhere.
Jim And so, actually I did get bitten, and Ra suggested that the bite was intensified by our friend of negative polarity to approximately equal the bite of a cottonmouth snake, a poisonous snake.
Gary And that bite was linked to you . . .
Jim To me due to allowing the difficulty, the poor communication, and the disharmony to exist between me and Don. So the little spider was just the avenue through which the negative entity could intensify the lack of harmony between Don and me at that time.
Gary So had you not been involved with the Ra contact, that sort of intensification probably would not have existed for—
Jim No, they wouldn’t even notice me.
Carla It wouldn’t have been necessary. Yeah, and that’s a good point. I think that all of the energy was focused on us as a group. I might have borne the brunt of it, but I did it for the group. It wasn’t me personally. If I had not been doing the Ra contact, I wouldn’t have had the problem because I wasn’t standing close enough to the light. The Ra contact was dealing with a creature of great light and beauty, and more so than I’d ever had before. And it brought the group to their notice. I always think of the negative entity as plural—I don’t know if it is or not, but you know—”they are legion,” as it says in the Bible.
Gary The next question is about blue-ray blockage. On one level this is—along with other questions that I ask—of biographical interest for the person who wants more background information about the Law of One and how it came to be. But on another level, I think it’s helpful for the student of this information to see an example of a principle; not to say that the example covers all the bases, but it does help to generate understanding.
So at one point Ra says:
RA Again, this group experienced blockage rare for the group; that is, the blue-ray blockage of unclear communication. By this means the efficacy of the [negative entity’s] working was reinforced. 98.5
What was this “blue-ray blockage of unclear communication”?
Jim At that time we were hoping to move down to the Atlanta, Georgia, area where Don was actually based as a pilot for Eastern Air Lines. He had to fly there before he could start his work, and it took about an hour to get there. So we thought it would be a lot handier, with him being based there, if we just moved there. So we were looking for a house and Don had found something that was a possibility, but it was so dirty inside that Carla thought, we at least need to clean the rugs if not buy new rugs, and Don wasn’t really willing to put out the money necessary to do all the cleaning of the rugs, or get new rugs. But that wasn’t clearly discussed on the way home. We flew home together on a plane, and I remember initiating some conversation there with Carla, and then with Don, about that situation, because there was an obvious disagreement as to what we should do about the dirtiness of this place—it’s gotta be fixed.
So that was what was happening. For a while, there was a lack of communication.
Carla I was reluctant to press it beyond a certain point. Again, I could read his face, and I knew that it was no use talking more. But I hadn’t expressed myself fully. I hadn’t said, “We can’t do sessions there unless we get that thing clean.” There was one particular spot on this rug which had—it was close to the wet bar, and the people that rented it before us were a group of Saints (the football team, the New Orleans Saints) and they were partying hard and drinking too much and they were always high on several substances. It was well known that this was a party place. It was a nice place, but I don’t know what was in that one spot on the rug, but it just spoke to me that it was evil. Something was living in that spot. There was enough left of something there for something to gain purchase, and it was alive. And it was malevolent. I really, really wanted it gone in the worst way. Everything else about the place was absolutely wonderful.
So, Don was like, “No, I’m not gonna clean that carpet—that’s ridiculous,” and I’m like, Ohhkaay, not today, I’m not going to talk about it.
And yet I thought about it the whole way back, so it was really bugging me. Jim kept urging me to bring it up and I just didn’t feel it was . . . I thought it was potentially harmful to push it at that time. I didn’t want to cause disharmony, so, as I sometimes do, I just took it into myself and didn’t share it. I thought I would bide my time.*
Gary Knowing you, that had to be difficult, because when something comes up on your radar that’s getting under your skin or getting to you in some way, you need to address it immediately and work it out.
Carla I do. Right away. And clearly, yes.
Gary That situation, too, is interesting in how it sheds light on how these mundane situations that we face every day—cleaning the carpet—are a platform for the balancing of energy, and working of our chakras, and relating to people.
Carla We don’t have to do unusual things or have great adventures to get the catalyst that we need. We’ll get it raising kids and scrubbing the toilet. We’ll get it.
Gary This is one that I was puzzled by:
RA The welting is a symptom of that which has been a prolonged psychic greeting. The opportunity for this entity to experience massive allergic reaction from streptococcal and staphylococcal viruses has been offered in hopes that this entity would wish to leave the incarnation.
The previous occurrence of this state of the mind complex occurring upon, in your time-numbering system, the ninth month, the twelfth day, of your present planetary solar revolution caught your fifth-density companion unprepared. The entity is now prepared.
105.2
So the way I read that, is Ra saying that you had wanted to die on September 12th of that year in 1983?
Carla I don’t think so. [to Jim] What was he saying, Micky? You get . . .
Jim No, I believe that was about the time we were preparing to move. We’d actually found another house in Georgia and we were about ready to go. And Carla had previously had some symptoms of this welting on her back.
Carla They looked pretty bad.
* This event of seeming little moment had larger metaphysical consequence. See 96.2 for more on this point.
Jim Yeah, it was symmetrical.
Carla I’d had trouble with that glomerulonephritis when my kidneys failed.
Jim So that was the time, when she was about 12 years old, she had wanted to die because she didn’t feel that she could be of service. She’d gotten so much criticism from both her mom and dad over everything she did. When she was given the chance to babysit for her brother—when she was seven years old and the brother was just born. She cooked when she was ten—she had to stand up on a chair to reach the stove. She did all kinds of things to try to be of service, but she kept getting criticism. Her father was this German type of fellow that says, “Well, now, that’s good, but you could do that better.” Or, “What’s the matter with this one B on your report card when everything else was an A?”
So that was the kind of situation in which she was raised, and so by the time she got to be twelve years old, she thought, I can’t be of service and I really want to be of service. So she prayed to die. Six months later, her kidneys failed. So that’s what happened then.
So this situation now, with the welting of a symmetrical nature on both sides of her back, was a possibility of the same thing that had happened to her kidneys, that if she had any desire at all to give up the incarnation now, the entity could intensify that welting, and her kidneys would fail and she would die.3
Carla I’d forgotten that, so I figured he’d bring it back. Yeah, that was scary and, of course, I did not want to die, so that was pretty simple and straightforward once I got the . . . But there was a continuing problem, because I had a tendency to want to jump in and volunteer and do stuff. I remember trying to help pack, and at that point it was not wise for me to pack. Jim had to do everything, and so it was a difficult situation for me. And I, again, had to be reminded that I needed to take care of myself. Do that for the team. That was part of what we did.
Gary You have limitations.
Carla Yeah, and they were increasing very quickly, so it was hard to be completely aware of just how limited I was getting. It was happening pretty fast. Just like it’s happened this time. In the last couple of years it’s been amazing how much I’ve been limited. First, not being able to walk, and then not being able to be free of the catheter, not being able to get out of bed without help—worse and worse and worse as far as being limited—and happening fast enough that it was a challenge to keep up with it, and remember, this is your situation.
Gary Yeah, it’s kind of been a process of subtraction in your case, just removing one thing you can do, then another thing you can do, and then another.
Carla Yeah. And it was like that then, also, just not on the same level: No, you can’t drive, no, you can’t cook, no, you can’t . . . Just those simple things that everybody does, and I had done all my life. And then all of the sudden, no, it will not be realized. I had to preserve my energy.
Gary Especially difficult for someone like you whose whole being is oriented towards, not just doing just to do, but doing to serve. I want to help, I want to participate.
Carla Yeah, I loved it. I loved everything.
Gary During one of your conscious channeling sessions with those of Latwii on August 16, 1981, you had a pretty scary incident. When Don subsequently asked Ra about it, Ra explained how you narrowly avoided a rather undesirable fate:
RA We have instructed this instrument to refrain from calling us unless it is within this set of circumscribed circumstances. In the event of which you speak this instrument was asked a question which pertained to what you have been calling The Ra Material. This instrument was providing the voice for our brothers and sisters of the wisdom density known to you as Latwii.
This instrument thought to itself, I do not know this answer. I wish I were channeling Ra.
The ones of Latwii found themselves in the position of being approached by the Orion entity which seeks to be of service in its own way.
The instrument began to prepare for Ra contact. Latwii knew that if this was completed the Orion entity would have an opportunity which Latwii wished to avoid.
It is fortunate for this instrument, firstly, that Latwii is of fifth density and able to deal with that particular vibratory complex which the Orion entity was manifesting and, secondly, that there were those in the support group at that time which sent great amounts of support to the instrument in this crux.
Thus what occurred was the ones of Latwii never let go of this instrument although this came perilously close to breaking the Way of Confusion. [Latwii] continued to hold its connection with the mind/body/spirit complex of the instrument and to generate information through it even as the instrument began to slip out of its physical vehicle.
The act of continued communication caused the [fifth-density negative] entity to be unable to grasp the instrument’s mind/body/spirit complex and after but a small measure of your space/time, Latwii recovered the now completely amalgamated instrument and gave it continued communication to steady it during the transition back into integration. 68.54
Ra later explained in that session that, had the Orion entity been successful, your soul, essentially, would have been stolen away to negative time/space. Meaning you would eventually have to relinquish your positive polarity and learn the ways of service to self.5
A few questions from that one: So how did you—tell us about this moment. What happened?
Carla Well, I wasn’t aware of it. I was aware of thinking, gosh, I wish I were channeling Ra, I don’t know the answer to this. And I knew that it wasn’t something within Latwii’s purview—they didn’t know. The answer was going to have to be a simple no.
I was not aware that, within myself, that wish (I wish I were channeling Ra) was enough to start the inner processes of getting ready to communicate with those of Ra. I had no idea. To me, I just was getting what seemed to me like normal channeling, although it made less sense than usual, so I just continued channeling, and got it all back together, but it was strange enough to ask about later.
I’m not remembering all the details. Jim, can you fill us in?
Jim Oh, well, I was aware of it even less than you. I was sitting next to you, but I know that you stopped channeling for a moment or two, and then you started channeling—I don’t know, it didn’t seem to really make sense—they were just trying to generate words through you.
That was about all that happened then, and that was on a Sunday, and I think the next day (or maybe it was Tuesday that we had a Ra session) Don got the chance to ask the question.
Gary It said that the support group was sending support, sending energy . . .
Carla That would be Jim, gotta be. I must have been drawing6 for our contact. We always hold hands.
Gary So there was some awareness that there was a basic difficulty there with the instrument, but you had no idea as to . . .
Carla . . . the depth of the problem. Yeah.
Gary Prior to that point, you were highly cognizant that there were dangers and difficulties associated with attempting the contact with Ra. But at this point, you become aware of a consequence much more grave than any of you had probably imagined. Did this cause you to reassess whether the reward warranted the risk?
Carla Heavens no! All it caused me to reassess was The Crucifixion of Es-meralda Sweetwater, because that was in The Crucifixion of Esmeralda Sweetwater—as her danger, or the space girl’s danger—I don’t remember at this removed time. It’s been too long since we read that book, I don’t remember much.
Anyway, it was one more thing that was pre-seen in that supposed work of fiction, and we were all fairly amazed: Oh my God, here’s another synchro-nicity. And it couldn’t be just synchronicity, it was too exact.
Jim Don did everything he could do, to question Ra about what we could do, to be sure that didn’t happen. Sessions 68 through 72 are full of questions from Don about that incident and the possibility of losing Carla. What can we do?
Gary Ken and I were just talking about that. Don seemed quite baffled by it, but asked questions not only to understand, intellectually, but in order to prevent it from happening.
Jim Yes, that’s how we dealt with it, to ask Ra, “Well, what should we do about this? How do we keep this from happening?”
Gary I would be quite disconcerted if I were in those shoes.
Carla One thing that Ra said at the time was that as long as I was being touched, I couldn’t leave my body.7
Jim Yes. A simple holding of the hand. That’s why, up until this day, I hold her hand when we’re meditating.
Carla Or doing spiritual work like this. We blessed this and tuned for it, so we consider it part of the service to others, so we’re holding hands.
Gary Which answered my next and final question for psychic greeting, which was:
What were the lasting ramifications of that moment? And you’ve held Carla’s hand ever since, to make sure that there’s no chance that she could leave her body.
Jim “. . . infringe upon her aura so that the spirit does not want, or find it able, to leave.”8
Gary Good safeguard all these years.
Jim And very simple, and pleasant, and romantic.
Carla Very low-tech. [laughs] Nothing to plug in.
Gary That’s a great way to put it. That concludes all the psychic greeting material. Thanks for trudging through all that.
Carla [laughs] Yeehaw. I’m glad it’s done.
Notes
[1] What Ra describes of Jim’s patterns is for Jim to know. He reached his own conclusion that works for him. But an alternative interpretation regarding the “the connection matrices between mental/emotional complexes and the physical complex counterpart” may be something along the lines of physical distortions being a result of mental/emotional distortions, and the negative entity intensifying that, as the negative entity did later in the contact with the spider bite. (Thanks to Austin for this insight.) ↩
[2] Half of Jim’s thoughts in this Q&A came from Jim’s reply to an email seeking further clarification on the point. ↩
[3] Jim writes of this Q&A: ↩
In reviewing this, it does sound like Ra is saying that Carla had wished to die on Sept. 12 of 1983, but I don’t remember any mood or feeling like that. What was happening was that she was keeping the feeling of harmony between herself and Don and then herself and our landlord as we were attempting to move. She kept her harmony with both of them even though both of them were giving her a hard time about what they wanted.
[4] This question and answer refer to the L/L Research Sunday night meditation of August 16, 1981. ↩
The remainder of Session 68 focuses exclusively on this situation, its practical and philosophical implications. The topic is investigated further in subsequent sessions.
[5] Reflecting on the possibility of Carla being stolen away to negative time/space, as it were, Jim wrote in The Camelot Journal for June 8, 2015: ↩
As I was recording Session #68 from the Ra contact this evening I became very emotional at the end. This was the session where Don questioned Ra about Carla's nearly going into trance during a Sunday night meditation and nearly being led away by our negative polarity friend. The tears flowed powerfully because this session reminded me once again how much of a spiritual warrior Carla was in being willing to do whatever was necessary to be of service to others. She was that way all her life, and this session underlined her unbreakable resolve to give of herself until all was given.
The Camelot Journal of L/L Research, Jim McCarty, June 9, 2015, www.bring4th.org.
[6] About “drawing,” Jim writes: “I was holding Carla’s hand while the negative entity [unbeknownst to Jim] was trying to steal her mind/body/spirit away. And she was ‘drawing energy’ from me as I was her battery.” ↩
[7] Which is an effective preventative measure and safeguard for conscious channeling, but could not be used for the contact with Ra. While Carla was separated from her body in that peculiar state, her body could not in any way be disturbed by environmental inputs, including physical touch. ↩
QUESTIONER Thank you. A question I didn’t get to ask the previous session which I will be forced to continue at this time is, is the trance state the only condition from which a mind/body/spirit positive entity may be lured by a negative adept to a negative time/space configuration?
RA I am Ra. This is a misperceived concept. The mind/body/spirit complex which freely leaves the third-density physical complex is vulnerable when the appropriate protection is not at hand. You may perceive carefully that very few entities which choose to leave their physical complexes are doing work of such a nature as to attract the polarized attention of negatively oriented entities. The danger to most in trance state, as you term the physical complex being left, is the touching of the physical complex in such a manner as to attract the mind/body/spirit complex back thereunto or to damage the means by which that which you call ectoplasm is being recalled.
This instrument is an anomaly in that it is well that the instrument not be touched or artificial light thrown upon it while in the trance state. However, the ectoplasmic activity is interiorized. The main difficulty, as you are aware, is then the previously discussed negative removal of the entity under its free will.
That this can happen only in the trance state is not completely certain, but it is highly probable that in another out-of-body experience such as death the entity here examined would, as most positively polarized entities, have a great deal of protection from comrades, guides, and portions of the self which would be aware of the transfer you call the physical death. 69.3
[8] About infringing on the aura: ↩
QUESTIONER Then you are saying just by holding the instrument’s hand during the channeling sessions that this would prevent trance?
RA I am Ra. This would prevent those levels of meditation which necessarily precede trance. Also in the event that, unlikely as it might seem, the entity grew able to leave the physical complex the auric infringement and tactile pressure would cause the mind/body/spirit complex to refrain from leaving. 69.19